Left Behind #dreamsymbolism

IMG_0607

I woke before the alarm, standing in a room filled with crystals and stones inside a mall. Alone. Left behind by two “friends” and a boyfriend. It is likely they even took my blue Volt with them, driving away in the guiltless pleasure of having deserted me. I had my cell phone with me and took it out while I surveyed the crowded, lifeless space. It was useless to me. I didn’t have any of their numbers. Even if I had, would they have answered?

It had been a strangely vivid dream. So real it felt like life, yet I had not even been thinking of these three people. Remnants from adolescence angst. The two girls who I felt had once betrayed me and left me behind many years ago, I realized were still haunting me with this fear. We dream what we need to heal, and last night I dreamt the fear of being left behind. Again.

If I take the road back further, driving in my blue car, as I did in the dream, I can retrace the routes I once traveled. Those I had left behind, and those who had left me behind. I am not guiltless, as my dream showed me. There was the girl I’ll call Sally, who tried to get into the car with me. Opened the door blue door to squish her way into the passenger seat with me, while my boyfriend drove and those two former friends sat with glee in the backseat. I told her “no,” that there was “no room for her,” before I shoved her out and closed the door, while thinking about the empty space that could have held her behind me.

It was fall when we traveled the roads in my dream. The season of life before decay. I had gazed in admiration at the hills shrouded in color as we crested the top of one to land in a place covered with carved stones. “There’s a goat!” Or was it a wolf? I thought it was real before I became embarrassed by my mistake. Oh, how I wanted to be accepted. Liked. Loved.

Yet, we are all left behind and we all leave others behind. Intentionally and deliberately. Sometimes with love, sometimes for lack of love. Self-preservation can be a cruel need. It forgets that this leaving behind is never lasting, but a necessary part of the growth of the self before it discovers that there is no self. Division, another cruel trick of the mind searching for acceptance. Forgetting that the self divides only to someday return to the ever-flowing river that is Love.

 

Advertisements
Posted in Dreams, Reflections | Tagged , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

The Rotating Blade of Meaning (4)

Steve Tanham continues his series:

The Silent Eye

Arthur Young part 4 keswick pic sm

Everything is in motion… Arthur M. Young and Isaac Newton both knew that, but in different ages and different ways. Let’s take a slight detour into some basic ways of looking at one of our fundamentals – the way things move. Our search for Arthur M. Young’s ‘geometry of meaning’ will be enhanced if we can enrich our vocabulary…

Someone in the age of Newton would have said. “This chair upon which I sit is plainly still.”

We can be cleverer than that, now. We all know that our planet is rotating once per day. We may remember that the Earth orbits around its sun once per year. We can even know that the atoms from which the chair is made are themselves in constant motion, albeit within a quantum envelope which renders them solid only when they are observed. The chair is therefore in constant motion, but most of…

View original post 1,367 more words

Posted in Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Courage matters.

Savvy Raj

Courage plays out in numerous ways
Sometimes as acts of dare
Changing the path of destiny
Sometimes it is the resilience to brave
All odds with humility and honour.

Sometimes it is courage that speaks boldly
Where voices are muffled in fear and favour
Othertimes courage bears it all in forbearance
Withholding in the wisdom of patience.

Whatever the path courage takes
When Courage speaks
There is bound to be a breakthrough
There is hope and faith
A belief in humanity
A deliverance in trust
To stand up against all odds
For a cause or a person or reason.
Speaks volumes of the spirit in the daring soul.

No act of dare is insignificant
For every act of courage
Leaves an everlasting imprint
Inspiring the aspiring
Encouraging and motivating
Improving and imploring life
To hope for the better.
That there is a light of dawn
After the plight of the…

View original post 2 more words

Posted in Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Honour and Respect

Savvy Raj

A Matter of Honouring the Self and Respecting Others.

“Nothing in Nature can be fully free without restricions or interdependence. Such is the way of Nature, like so is its creations. There can be free will for all, but care should be taken in its extension so it never suffocates others. All natural elements like Sun, Ocean confine to their own boundaries, in spite of being so potent and powerful. If they cross calamities can happen.”

I received these above reflections from my mother on reading my recent post On Freedom

This is an important aspect of freedom which is about respect for edges and spaces. Knowing your edges… is knowing your freedom ends at the tip of your fingers and toes. So honour your personal space… Beyond that there are boundaries to be respected.

On respecting another’s personal space

The term “personal space” generally refers to the physical…

View original post 779 more words

Posted in Uncategorized | Leave a comment

Life-Saving Trick to Save Yourself If You are Choking With No One Around to Help BY Teresa Sutakanat…

Chris The Story Reading Ape's Blog

on The Epoch Times:

Imagine the agonizing pain your body must feel when it’s being deprived of oxygen. It’s no joking matter.

The obstruction of the airway passage, even partial, can result in asphyxia and death, which is why choking is the fourth most common cause of unintentional injury-related death.

So what should you do if you’re choking?

If one is lucky, there is someone nearby who can perform the Heimlich maneuver.

This first-aid procedure requires the rescuer to stand behind the patient and use their hands to thrust pressure on the diaphragm to dislodge the object and expel it.

What if you’re alone?

Find out more HERE

View original post

Posted in Uncategorized | 2 Comments

Being present

The Silent Eye

It was weird. I had set up the blog for while I was away with every post I would usually publish. During my absence, I still managed to visit the blogs I would usually read and answered all the comments. In fact, there was absolutely nothing to show I was not at home and at my desk. Even so, the number of page views halved. That happens every so often for no apparent reason and it is not worth even thinking about. This time, though, the stats had been that way for exactly the duration of my absence. I can understand the change when it is obvious that I am away, when posts and responses might be erratic, but on this occasion, there was nothing at all to even hint that I might not be at home.

“So, in effect,” said my friend as I pondered the enigma, “the only…

View original post 513 more words

Posted in Uncategorized | 2 Comments

How tourism destroys Nature….. Everest…

Inspire&change

A small example of how we are destroying the nature’s beauty.

Everest summit has been a boom in past two decades and it will be too late for us to realize what we have done to the spiritual and one of the beautiful places in the world.

Once upon a time it was considered to be a huge achievement reaching the top of Mount Everest and is considered the best place to avoid people and feel the spirituality, but now it is actually way too full of people. The regular visits by the people every year is turning the peaceful mountain into a depressing dump yard.

You would say, ” I am not a tourist and going on a spiritual journey summiting Mount Everest”. Yes it was………………..

It was, during the initial days when mountaineers Tenzing Norgay and Edmund hillary summited Mount Everest in 1953. It was a real feat…

View original post 213 more words

Posted in Uncategorized | 4 Comments